Becky With The Good Hair. pt1

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Zack was everything I ever wanted in a man. 

Dating in my city can be an extreme sport. Tell me I am not the only one who adores couples at the malls, holding hands and walking side by side. Smiling at each other, and us, by passers! I mean, love is beautiful. At some point, that was me and Zack.

Zack was my man. I was the luckiest girl in the world, okay, maybe I am exaggerating. However, if you had bumped into me and him on our way to dinner, you would have certainly agreed with me that I was indeed the luckiest girl in Nairobi! We all know that Nairobi is the ghetto when it comes to dating. Remember what Bensol said about Nairobi?

Anyway, no bad vibes here. Back to me and my Zack. 



He was contemplation & enthusiasm, well mannered, a gentleman; my gentleman, had a home in the leafy suburbs, a nice car; ok I don't know much about cars but the one we used was a black Audi. He was everything, in a good way😚.

This man gave me queen treatment. Speak of random flowers, the Mpesa messages weekly; girlfriend allowance check💁💁. Date nights, movies at the cinemas and dinners in 5star hotels once in a while, obviously because he was a busy man. Zack would hold my hand when I least expected it. The way he looked at me gave me assurance that I was the only woman in his life. Ever since we started to date, there was never a time I opened a door for myself while together, never! " After you my lady" he would say, with is deep voice, while touching the small of my back gently. He was the king of chivalry. This always melted my heart, and he knew it! 

One thing about dating an older man was that I never really had to ask for anything. He always had the right things to say. It's like he could read my mind. He had my full attention. Catching flights became a norm for a village girl like me, I need to not forget to mention, it was always first class tickets! He handled me so well. I was happy, no, I was very happy! He took care of me in all aspects you can think of 😇😉.

Zack was everything I ever wanted in a man, and MORE!

Days turned to weeks and then months. As seasons changed, so did my Zack. The man I loved so much was slowly becoming a stranger. Dark days followed and they followed fast. It was unbelievable. 


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