Keep on keeping on!

I hope you live your truth; I hope you give yourself a chance to try, I hope you know that not having all the answers is okay and the uncertainties of life is what makes life worth living. I pray that when all is said and done you will clap for yourself and be proud of the man or woman you’ve become. Life is beautiful, but its more beautiful when you are in it. Stay strong, stay hopeful and take it a day at a time. I am here for you. 

I’m learning that life gets better. That as much as it may be unbearable sometimes, that life is still beautiful. There will be days when literally everything is working out, from family, to the relationship with the love your life, from school or the corporate world to your finances and from your siblings to your best friends. Days when it feels good to be alive and you are somewhat sure of the path you are in. And when everything is fine, we are happy and we are on top of the world. Life is great at this point.  

But then. there are days when it’s hard to get out bed, days when home is not so sweet (Home sweet home?), when dad and mom are not in good terms and there is tension in the home and everyone is walking on eggshells, days when life unsurprisingly become unbearable, and there is a lump on the throat that never seems to go away. Days when our fears become so real and we wanna scream, sometimes smoke or drink to try numb the pain. The truth is, most times the pain never goes away.  

When with friends, we put on a façade of happiness and smiley faces but deep down we are crushing, life is simply overwhelming. When we don’t pick up your call, please understand that it’s not you, it’s me, trying to pick myself up from the mess I’m in. When you are in a dire situation and you need help. Please don’t think I’m selfish because I saw your message and didn’t reply, understand that I am fighting battles that you may never understand. I’m sorry for being the friend who vanishes for weeks, sometimes even months without an explanation.  

When we are happy, we are really happy, the type of happiness that can’t be put into words because the same goes with the intensity and excruciating pain we feel when life becomes unfair. And so, as years go by, we come to an understanding that we are never alone, and that we are not weak, as a matter of fact, we are strong because we choose to live on. We are hopeful that weeping will endure for a night but surely, joy comes in the morning. I hope you know just how strong you are; you’ve got this. A brighter tomorrow is waiting for you. 

I’m learned to be patient with life, to take tiny steps, and to be hopeful in every situation, good and bad. That everyone was/is fucked up in their own way and some people are really good at hiding their pain, imperfections, fears, and failures. I’m learning that we all have different journeys in life and I am convinced that I am where I am supposed to be. I’m learning to enjoy this fucked up but beautiful journey and laugh at myself once in a while. I am learning not to take this life too seriously.  

Finally, I’m learned to look within for answers, to not blame anyone for anything because this life is mine. I’m learning to ask myself difficult questions that I tend to run from all the time. I’m learning to put myself first and give myself a chance to make mistakes because that is how we humans learn, that my mistakes don’t define me. Don’t get me wrong, yes, I learn from the mistakes of others and try not to go down the same path, but I am human and I have made major mistakes, and I choose to own those mistakes and learn as I go. 

 

PS: And if today all you did was hold yourself together, I’m proud of you. 

RED TABLE TALK 

https://fb.watch/cSvDJO0rE7/ 

 

Hugs bestie.