Wit and delight

“The sun is hot out here,” she said. It was back in the day, 2016 to be precise. I was in high school and we had gone for a Breast Cancer awareness conference. After the event we were going round different stations set by the organizers speaking to experts about the dreaded topic. We had to make the most out of this once in a life time opportunity.   If you were in a boarding school, you definitely know how hard it was to step out of school, especially during third term. But here we were, at the famous KICC. Walking on the same ground with the elite and the “who is who” of this country; the women rep, ministers and the president. It was an amazing experience. In as much as there were many schools, I couldn’t help but noticed the national schools, wait, I always envied students from National Schools, especially those from the Kenya High School (My dream school) and the great Nairobi school; which my then boyfriend was in. For some reasons, I always felt like I was in the wrong...

  Dear Diary,   Loyalty, honesty, and vulnerability. Why am I like this! Perhaps it is because of my rough childhood, or maybe because I am a loner, an introvert who loves to do things on their own. I have built a wall that no one can climb. I feel safest when I am alone and I am the kind of person that loves to create a safe environment emotionally from people that are close to me, especially friends, rarely family. I am the weird child, the one who is never seen, leave alone talking and holding conversations. Ask me about everyone else but me. Am I really this damaged? This cold? This afraid? Today, I got a glimpse of my other side, somewhat my hidden side (Shadow). The side that is toxic, and very narcissistic. You know, they say that people who are kind and pleasant have another side that is equally extreme. I didn’t believe this until today. How did I end up here, how can I be like this?  Am i this ugly? How did i get here? “Self-awareness is like an onion....